♥Friday, December 24, 2010
Graduation!
Its been so long since I last wrote something here. But it still doesn't kill the fact that I have more bad days than ever. I just never got the time & thinking to write it down in words.
Anyway don't know if its a good news or not.. I just graduated from Taylor's University! Woohoo congrats? Thanks if/to anyone who cares anyway. :) Was actually quite happy with it since I got a "Very Honorable Pass" to go with my Certificate of Completion. :))
But truth is, my family did not show any (or if any) good reaction that thought I would at least get? I mean c'mon, your daughter just graduated after 2 long years of hard work, suffering, late night assignments & exams, & I can't even get a single compliment out of you guys? Like a simple "I'm proud of you girl" or "good job" would be so wonderful you know. I'm not even asking for much.
First thing that came out of my mom's mouth was just "Oh then you should start looking for jobs on the internet already". That's it mom? Like really? She some more can say "then what do you want me to say?" Mann my mind straight away went blank. Words couldn't even describe how I feel at that moment. I feel like all of my hard work just went to waste. Like what was my purpose of studying hard & trying to get good grades, always attending classes when I could just easily lie & skipp classes like the rest of my classmates if this is the ending that I was gonna get. Why would I go through all that trouble when I could just easily get a pass & my diploma & get a job.
I should have known better if not I wouldn't have wasted my 2 years trying so hard to survive in college if I could have just simply get the cert & go off. Clearly nobody in my house cares since NONE of them even care to look at my certificate. Not even one of them touch it. & now its just sitting there on my room floor. I think I'm just gonna put it aside & bury it or something. Maybe someday went SOMEBODY finally asked I'll probably dig it back out again.
My best friend was the only one who called & actually congratulate me that night & I truly appreciate her effort. Thanks girl you're the best. :') & my sister as well for congratulating me on msn. Thanks for remembering sis. :)
& well I'm happy to say that I still haven't shed a tear about this issue yet cause again I don't see the point since no one cares about me right? & oh am not in talking terms with my family now. Mainly my mom cause apparently she is throwing a face about my 'attitude' & she still doesn't quite know why am I showing face to the family but you know what? I just don't feel like talking to them cause I feel like theres nothing much to talk about with them. Is that my fault for feeling that way since I don't feel appreciated? Yes? Fine cause either way I'm still not gonna talk to them. I mean I am but just not the cheerful way anymore. I can't find a way for me to be like the old self now & I think that its best to just remain silent since that way I won't be getting in to trouble for saying something they don't like or might not like to hear anyway.
Aite thats all for now. Good enough I feel slightly better now after typing this down. Cya! :)
Oh yea & here's my certificate.
Who says I can't be happy & proud of myself. :)
even robots need love/@7:49 PM
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